2005-08-01
Don't get too close - I might bite
I sometimes wonder about my lack of trust in people. Why do I not trust my friends and those around me to know the real me? Did I have a scarring incident early on in my childhood that I've blocked from my memory? I don't understand it.
I always keep people at arms length. Can't let them got too close. I could probably spend hours trying to figure this out and still come out without an answer.
People fear getting hurt. They also fear rejection. I fear getting hurt and being rejected. It's more than a fear - it's a phobia almost.
I do know this. If I don't start opening up myself to opportunities I'm going to live a void life. I'm going to have to take risks to gain anything. I'm going to have to risk my heart once and a while. If it gets broken, I'll have Jesus to put the pieces back together.
unchallenged at 8:55 p.m.