2007-12-09
Spit
You know what? Despite it all, there is a little part of me who wants my sister to love me. Who would give in every single time, if only she would always be the sweet happy girl she used to be, and still can be at times (although, in my opinion most of those times feel so fake because she's just sucking up to get on your good side before she asks what she wants then attacks because you didn't give it to her even though she was being so nice, conveniently forgetting the hell she put you through earlier that day). A part of me who wants to do anything for her.
And honestly, it's because of that part of me that I'm sitting here, cynical and bitter. It's that part of me who got beaten and abused and taken advantage of and stomped, spat, and kicked on, by the world, by my sister. And that's why I hate her.
unchallenged at 8:20 p.m.